Updated: Feb 16
08/02/21 - 14/02/21
Monday - 08/02/21
Today was a mentally draining day. I had to email my lecturers and say that I couldn't make it to class because I was having a bad day.
It is totally okay to have bad days. I didn't feel guilty at all, because mental health issues are so natural.
If you are reading this and you are having a bad day mentally don't be afraid to reach out for help <3
Tuesday - 09/02/21
Today was a better day. I managed to make it to class. Although, I was two hours early, please don't ask! Today I created a soundscape for The Tempest using 'Orbit' by Ludovico Einaudi as a base. The aim for the piece was to create a piece with sea-like elements and twinkles of magic. The soundscape starts at 30 seconds.
It was so fun to make, I didn't realise how much I loved creating soundscapes! I have a lot to work on but still. Who knows, it is something I could further work on and maybe it could blossom into something special.
After class I went on a two mile run it was snowing! I couldn't stand running in the snow, it was horrible, it was cold to begin with and then each snow flake flew into my mouth like flies. DO NOT RECOMMEND. Anyway, it was just nice to get out of the house for a breather even if it was bloody freezing.
Also, I need to get something off my chest. Right, so my sister and I have been trying to get into contact with some of our family members but we haven't had very much luck. It almost feels like it has been thrown back completely into our faces. Sometimes I question, is it even worth trying. But, it was worth trying because you only you live once, and you only regret the chances you don't take. It is completely up to them if they don't want contact but at least I feel somewhat better for trying.
Anyway, I spend the majority of my afternoon chilling in the kitchen with my flat mates, it was lovely to spend some quality time with them :) I also spent majority of my afternoon getting bits together for my Care Day video project ! I am excited for this project to be pieced together! Only ten days to go until National Care Day! <3
Wednesday - 10/02/21
Interestingly boring! I know it's oxymoronic but it's the only expression I can find to describe my day! I first woke up but definitely didn't have the energy to get out of bed. I don't know if it's just me but if I plan on being out of bed for say 8:30 I will set my alarm for 7:45 so that I feel like I have had extra in bed. Weird I know.
Anyway, I recorded a segment for my Care Day segment, unfortunately I felt as though I couldn't get it right. I kept on recording but just felt as though I was missing information out or that it didn't make sense! I even had bullet points/plans of what to say. Maybe I will try and recording it again tomorrow. Although, I have a rather busy day scheduled.
Later, I had a doctors appointment. Doctors appointments stress me out even if I have nothing to worry about. Then, I played abit of Minecraft with Max. Max made a 'Nether Portal' which was interesting. He ended up in a world called 'The Nether' which in my opinion the worst place to end up! It is full of 'fire, lava, fungus-based vegetation, and many hostile mobs.' Meanwhile, I was lost in a cave because I got so interested in searching for diamonds I lost my way. Typical. I wanted to make a diamond sword to fight off all of the enemies. When I finally found my way back (with abit of help from Max... Okay.. So a lot of help off Max) I finally made my special diamond sword!
I am writing this when fish pie is cooking in the oven, I love proper home made food! Not that I went out and caught the fish or anything, but cooking food from scratch, it feels as though I have achieved something. I don't know if it's just me but I love knowing what exactly is doing into my tummy.
Right that's the alarm to say food is cooked, I better get going before the fish pie burns<3
Thursday - 11/02/21
When I say I have never been so cold! I mean I have never been this cold! Today was so chilly the wind was like ice swords scraping the skin. Other than freezing myself to death I had an orthodontist appointment, which was just as painful as the ice swords.
It turns out that my braces are not coming off anytime soon, even though they were meant to come off last November. Maybe Corona Virus has something to do with the massive back log. Anyway, the orthodontist told me that I have a stubborn tooth that hasn't moved as quickly as they hoped. If my teeth are anything like me then they will not be moving ever, I am quite a stubborn person. My inner Taurus see.
Anyway, once I had come back from my appointment I had class. So, apparently dressing up as Louis VI out of household items is what needs to be done to get a degree. After, class I worked on my Care Day Project, it's coming along slowly :) Then I finished the day off playing abit of Minecraft. Considering I was a novice to Minecraft a week or so ago I am getting pretty good even if I do say s0 myself. <3
Friday - 12/02/21
It's Friday baby! Yay! I can't believe Friday is here already :) I honestly thought it was Wednesday. I started today off with a lecture, another weird one today! That's all I am going to say. After class I made abit more progress on my care day project. I am having to watch what I say which is rather stressful and which is why it is taking me so long to do.
After, I done my washing and walked down the massive hill of Aberystwyth to go see Max. We are having Salmon pasta today! It is our Friday treat. Anyway my day has been rather boring. How's your day been? I am off to go watch something on tv and eat up my pasta.
Saturday - 13/02/21
Another bitterly cold day! I woke today and didn't want to get out of bed, it was so comfy! Once I got the courage to actually get out (partly because my bladder was about the burst) I did the usual morning routine then completed a workout. It was a sweaty session today, Heather Robinson you never let me down! Take that what you will.
After my sweaty session I had to complete some university work, I have been neglecting it this week. I am really struggling to find motivation to do university work because I just love make videos for my YouTube. As of today I am on 86 subscribers! I can't believe it, for me this is crazy stuff! Imagine one day having 100 subscribers then 150 and so on and so forth! Anyway, after doing another sound scape for university I played abit of Minecraft then went on a very icy cold walk with Max. I don't know why it has been so cold the past couple of days but I hope the suns comes back soon. Anyway, the day has been and gone and I am ready for bed. See you tomorrow, sweet dreams. <3
Sunday - 14/02/21
Another cold one today! I honestly haven't done much today but I did manage to finish a video and post it ! I will insert it below -
This for me is such an important video. It takes up every positive and negative experience I have ever had and put it into a short video! When I was putting all the information for this video into bullet points I was shocked. I was shocked that I have had so many experience both good and bad yet still wake up everyday thankful for every moment I have on this earth. Foster Care is a weird system when you think about it. Am I right? Like, you are here one minute then the next minute you are calling somewhere else your home. Weird.
It's Valentines day today and I have or had nothing planned I spend abit of the morning with Max but by twelve I was back at my place doing work. It's crazy how university work can take over your life. My sister has been lovely and she sent me some money over for a takeaway - I haven't used it today I will save it for when I have a takeaway (whenever that may be) Anyways, I am doing to do some more university work before I hit the hay ! Let's see how next week pans out. <3